I've been contemplating writing something and/or posting some questions in the forums here, but each time I find a reason to distract myself away from that effort. This time I've decided to forget about posting in the forums and to just type something up, something to summarize the thoughts and ideas I've been having and the questions on my mind.
Where to begin? Well, begin with the thing that ways heaviest on my mind. I'm in a deep, dark hole, one only partially caused by antibiotics, but also life throws it's little hand in there too. I'm struggling with things but not about to give up...yet. Before I ever do such a thing, I have to try something else on my mind, which leads me to my first question, never before posed (by me).
Who has proven the efficacy of the Wheldon protocol, the protocol I've been following for 16 months and 14 pulses? I know of two people who did...Sarah and Rica, but are they just 2 successes out of 100 attempts? One thing that jumps out at me about them is that at various times other, alternative antibiotics have been used besides those I've been using. So the question is, should I try that too? It's something to do before giving up I suppose.
Another question on my mind is whether or not the fact that I'm so physical and go to the gym so much has worked against me? When body building, you generally want to avoid cardio because of the weight loss characteristics of it. Body building involves wieght gain. Same sort of thing might be happening with apoptosis. In order to allow the cells to die, maybe pushing them harder isn't the optimal approach. Maybe I've been sabotaging myself. But how do I know, I can't stop as I'll definitely pay the consequences if I do from an athletic standpoint.
Should I be taking one of the CRABS medications? I was prescribed Betaseron 7 years ago and never once took it. A friend takes Copaxone and seems to do fairly well while on it. Of course, I have absolutely no desire to go down that path if I can at all avoid it.
There's been recent discussion about using a p-glycoprotein inhibtor, so I've been reading up on what pg is. I wonder whether or not my previous use of certain BBB strengthening agents is slowing down/preventing the abx from entering my CNS.
So many questions but are there any answers? Probably not and that's just the nature of being a pioneer, striking out into the unknown.