I’m always a bit reluctant to shout too loudly about the good bits, as they so often have a tendency to disappear again the next day, seemingly shy at being spoken about. And I’m always a bit reluctant to mention the not so good bits, because I prefer, instead, to keep telling myself that surely all of this will become a whole lot easier any time now – as I still wait patiently for that to happen! It is 4 years this week, since I started taking the antibiotics – and I still find it the most baffling, bewildering and amazing process, mainly because progress does not happen in a straight-forward linear way, as we would tend to expect and hope for, but with ever increasing ups and downs, with most improvement happening whilst other things seem to be worsening, causing us to look the other way.On a day to day basis, it’s still a struggle, especially as I never know from one day to the next how I’m going to be, and herxes are never far away, waiting to pounce the moment I start to enjoy feeling well. But, if I look at things year on year, well, there can be no doubting that good things have happened.I had a lot of die-off in my brain a few months ago, which does seem to have caused my brain turn to jelly. There are lots of cognitive problems and I especially struggle to put thoughts into words – so apologies for being quiet so much of the time!But the good things which I want to report, for which I thank all who contribute to this wonderful forum, without which this progress would not have happened:My walking was very poor when I started abx and continued to get worse during the first three years. It was around this time last year that things started to improve enough for me to start walking very short distances without using the crutch. I love going for walks and my walking has gradually been improving over the past year. I find that every moment of going for a walk is especially appreciated now that I know what it’s like not to be able to do that – it definitely makes all the struggles worthwhile and is so cheering. By the end of last year I was, on a good day, able to go for a walk at the park which is about 2 miles.A few weeks ago there was the greatest glimmer so far – when I went for a walk around a local reservoir, which is a circular walk of 5 miles. I didn’t allow myself to get too excited though, just in case it was a one-off, never to be repeated, moment of madness. But, having done the same walk again today, perhaps it’s time to share this improvement! I can’t remember ever being able to walk that far, even when I was ‘well’! OK, so I can only walk that distance when it’s in a straight line and I don’t have to think – but walking straight lines at the reservoir beats negotiating around the shops any day!And another positive – all the weight which I put on, during the first 2 years of abx (about 28lb), has magically disappeared this year, so I am now back to where I was when I started 4 years ago. Happy with that!