First, thanks for the encouragement from everyone. It's been a really bad week - I would say I was suicidal several times. As with many of you, so much is going on in addition to whatever the CPN is doing to my body. I am taking appropriate meds for it all and seeing my docs.
While laying in bed with too much time to think, these are the layers of problems I came up with.
1. General Anxiey Disorder - diagnosed years ago while raising and homeschooling five children ages ten and under. Marriage problems added to the anxiety.
2. Panic attacks - I had some even as a child, but didn't know what they were.
I am seriously, severely depressed and I'm getting really depressed about it. I've only been on CAP for a few months and already I'm tired of it ready to give up. When do I start feeling better? Where do CFS/Fibro symptoms end and just plain old depression kick in? I'm getting some of the best care possible and on tons of meds and support. Yet I can't make it through the day without falling apart.